did i not tell you?

dont call me a militant, i'm a far cry from one. but when instructions were given, specific requests were made and it wasnt fulfilled, not because it wasnt within your capacity to fulfil it, but because you chose not to. you chose to disregard. you chose to disrespect. and that pisses me off. i havent been as pissed off as i am now in a long time. and having to hold back and not blast your head off with words i know id regret is killing me. i should have, i know i'd feel so much better.

what the hell were you thinking. did i not make it clear? as magnanimous a person as i usually am..well, wrong choice of word perhaps. the least bothered i am, usually with petty issues like that. but when i made it a point to say something, and to even justify my every move with a reason, to have made more than 100% certain it wouldnt happen but it still did. and trust me when i say i went out of my way to make sure it wouldnt happen. how do you think i'd feel. do you think id brush it off? i might, you think. i may sleep it off like i'd usually do. take charge of your emotions, you'd say. i am, and just because i'm not putting a stop to it, doesnt mean i'm not taking charge of it.

i could bloody rip the next person who walks into the room up in shreds right now. fuck it all.