angst central

work has been rather lousy of late. and Nicks not around for me to bitch to, or just to be the only other person on my side, or the neutral party just because he is a guy. i feel like i'm setting this own personal vendetta all alone. and it's my duty to stand firm just because i dont wish to be a pushover. not that easy. just because you are older and your boobs sag lower, that doesnt mean you will command my respect. i can never understand, being colleagues and all working towards the same goal, why the harshness? is that honestly necessary?

and then there is the agency to deal with. we are the client. and it aint as if they are doing a fantastic job either. and they're charging so freaking much. how dare she talk to me like that. screw you asses. urghh..

i'm major angst central today. and my bloody email aint even working.

its one of those days where everything gets to you. maybe i'm just not cut out for this, maybe its my tile, my designation. that allows people to step all over me. like that guy i met a couple of weeks back. who refused to talk to me because i was just an executive. i'm sorry, you're not worthy of my manager's time. is that a good enough reason? urghhhhhhh..

its kinda like, you're a doctor, and you're in the operating theatre.and all of a sudden, you realise you dont want to be a surgeon anymore, kinda thing.

i need a break. i really do. ive been working non-stop for month now. save me quick, somebody. :(