ma lai see ya! cya! tata!

i am starving. and terribly annoyed at my mom who keeps popping into the room to nag at something. rah! and i cant believe i deprived myself of sleep for nothing. i was supposed to leave at 5am. so i didnt wanna sleep just in case i couldnt wake up. now theyre saying theyre gonna leave at 9am. RAH! how dare they. sleep is veryvery highly valued in my eyes. how dare they................... :(

i dont care, im gonna squeeze out a sausage and egg mcmuffin meal, a large orange juice and 10 hash browns from them later.

i still feel funny going on this trip. like id be gone for a really really long time. i had to do stuff that i never did before leaving the country. i sent out my resumes, send out msges stating that i wont be in singapore. had to inform albert that i wont be teaching this week, and maybe the next. had to send benny boy my usual surprise snailmail letter. had to get my swimming proposal settled and sent to gracie. so many things to do! so weird..

ive never quite felt this way before a trip. maybe its the anticipation of what is to come. i'm going on a solitude retrospective, reflective retreat. so id finally know what i wanna study and do for the rest of my life. secondly, i wanna encounter Jesus there. :) yay! i wanna spend a lot of time doing my quiet time. something that had been very much stagnated for the longest time ever. so that needs a little revival. so spiritual growth i hope. and very much improved driving skills i presume. driving in msia's quite a feat. how rude and reckless the drivers , only one can tell after having experiencing it first hand. so pray that id stay awake and not crash the car or get a speeding ticket. rah! i need sleep..!!