i have no friends

these sort of days shouldnt even deserve a title. its one of those chuck under the sheets sort of days where you'd pray you'd never have to revisit.

i woke up bright and early today. i'd never dread work. and if i ever do, i'll be gone before those words could ever slip my lips. it's friday. i'm suppose to love friday. its the social norm to love fridays but the past couple of weekends have been lonely and uneventful so i pretty much resigned to the fact that this weekend will leave me with nothing to look forward to.

chris was all naggy and fickle and was behaving exactly the way i would on a bad morning. and its never a good thing when both of our foul-loids collide. its disastrous. i was pissed about duabi's assholeness and he was making a huge fuss about minute issues like the colour of our railings. argh. i cant handle this in the morning. i had a crazy long day of appointments to deal with already and with this, it drove me crazy.

but works work. and the madness does die down, and we'd all be lazing in our corners slurping cup noodles over a conversation of boobs and monotesticulites. i love my job. but i dread the weekends.

a tiny part in me was frantically looking for companionship this weekend. at least for tonight. i made at least 5 calls to people i havent seen in a long while and tried to meet up. its very ungloria to do so. gloria gets called out all the time, but lately, she's been losing her magic. nobody wants a gloria around anymore. its the craze of yesteryears and it was depressing.

everyone had better plans, more interesting people to meet, more important events to attend. ill just sulk in my corner and accept the fact that i no longer have friends to call upon when the day ends. i dont have my daily core group to depend on anymore. neither do i have a best friend or a boyfriend who's even physically close to me. i need love. and i need alot of it.

somebody please be my friend. :(