switch modes

so this is weird. i'm back at the rambai. and i havent been around here much of late. not that i chose not too, i just seemed to be more pre-occupied with the things at home. or that there were issues that i chose not to deal with when i was at the rambai. or that it was too hormonal for my liking and everyone seemed to be pmsy half the time. pms as in...perpetual menstrual stress. to me, it was unnecessary stress to deal with. i dont know how he takes it. poor guy.

but thats besides the point.

now that i'm back, i actually got into work mode and did up things that were supposed to be done a long time ago. rescue trip is coming up and there isnt a single soul for that weekend. it's getting a tad distressing. it's going to be an SOS mission for this one, ironically, on a rescue weekend. urgh. and as much as i have ditched the responsibility of feeling needed for this job, it creeps back relentlessly and my heart still goes out for it. i still feel like i need to do this for reasons unknown.

anyhow, just to digress, photojojo's hiring! they're looking for a marketing jedi. haha. i know im retarded enough to fit the bill but the job offer's in san fran. what a dream it would be. jeff would be doing cartwheels if i got the job. then he'll start hitting himself hard in the balls for moving to new york. haha.

i should take up moms offer to visit pop in hainan this weekend. oh how im willing. but i cannot decipher which is scarier. being in china, or being in china with the parents. both very daunting tasks.. the chinese officials will probably chain lock me up for being an insult to the chinese language. my parents will probably do the same to me if i really get into travel mode. they wouldnt recognise me.

then there's robert who wants to take me to krabi because his family from spain is coming to visit. but theres ADEX the day after i come back and it will be chaotic if i go away for that week before. i can feel it. i know it. argh. the dire need to be responsible. i try, i do try people. i'm getting there. and i know justin's partly to blame for this sudden resurrection of the go go go gloria mode.

anyway.

what i really wanted to say before ranting was that because i havent been here for such a long time, i realised that my toothbrush has made so many friends with the other millions of people who have nestled their buttocks in the rambai abode that i can no longer recognise which is which. i'd reckon mine's the oldest out of the lot. which makes the most sense since it was the first foreign toothbrush there. but still... i cant believe i couldnt recognise it. when i told eugene about it last night saying i had a confession to make, it actually got me feeling guilty for being away for far too long.

now i'm back i guess. to all who's rejoicing or wallowing in sorrow that i'm taking the hot seat again, cheers. deal with it. haha.