pool woes

i honestly think january is passing too slowly. i look back, and i know i've done a HEAP of things through the past few long long looonggggg weeks, then i realise, its only been 3 weeks! that aint fair! why is time crawling? i cant wait for so much more to happen this year. i cant wait to dive again, cant wait till the 7s are here. cant wait for my next holiday, my next big event. my next cycling trip even! why is time passing so slowly!

so we went by and saw the pool today. it is SUCH a beauty. i cant believe its freaking 12m. you know how much we can do with that depth.hell! we could even throw a huge pre-opening rav party! how cool would it be to party in an empty pool. just to raise funds. haha. absolutely exciting. we could finally have our hang out spot. a place to call our own. and yet, it dawns on you and your dreams get crushed somehow. that it sets you apart from what you're trying to drive at. it is so near, and yet a faraway dream. you loose grasp of it, and it goes fleeting from your fingers. you try to hang on, but logic and all forms of reason direct you otherwise. but you want so bad for it to happen. for it to take place. for it to materialise. restrictions set in, you wake up from this dream, you wake up from this fantasy.

someday perhaps. it might happen. but i dont like being the one who takes the backseat and say, "someday it will.." because it never happens like that. if life were half as challenging, and half as difficult, it would also only be half as interesting, and half as exciting.. lets see what this pool beholds, lets see what it can possibly throw at us..