byebye birdie

it seems to be like the season of goodbyes aint it. i've lost quite a fair bit these past few weeks, my camera, laptop, relationships, etc. and now i have to say goodbye to my newly found feathered pal.

its a heap of mixed emotions. i mean, i chose to give it to budi. i know he'll do a million times better as its owner, and partly because i know it aint mine. i mean, apart from us finding the bird, i didnt have the same familiarity as i had with birdbird. and i felt replacing him wasnt..i dont know...ethical. for a lack of a better word. like, if you lose your kid in an accident, you dont want your new kid to be wearing the same old clothes, sleep in the same old bed kinda thing. and fine, its just a bird, i know. but its different. its the connection and relation that runs deeper, way beyond the feathered vs. skin superficials.

unless i can give it a good home, i wouldnt want it to suffer in the minute abode i live in right now. i barely have space to stretch my legs, i cant squeeze in all my animals with me. next time perhaps, i'll recreate my zoo. i'll get a hoard of reptiles, gerbils, birds, fishies and what nots. and of course, like all lions, baby shall reign as the king of the jungle. the balless king of the jungle to be exact. hah.

I swear the house i live in now is major anti animal jinxed. since moving in, i had everything dying/escaping on me. even the cat rarely comes home. boo. i cant wait till mom and pop settle their issues in malaysia and china and we finally find a proper home to live in. or maybe by then, i'll get a place on my own. ill be happy with the chirping and meowing. i could do without moms nagging, some peace and quiet at least.

so there, birdie has moved to budi's. i hope she's settling in fine. no one's gonna greet me in the morning or when i get home late at night :( i didnt think i'll say this, but hell yeah, i'm missing her bad.

to a better home sweets..