strive for more glor

my days have been so packed. ive been so tired lately.

i slept the entire saturday away. apart from dropping by at hongzhens at eleven, it was pretty much alone time with me and bed. i ended up watching the skeleton key, well we all did. shop girl and memoirs of a geisha. haha. while the rest snoozed away, i finished up the other 2 along with rod's symphonies of snoring. not cool. and least to say, the england vs france match was so not worth watching. i so wanted france to win. englands boring. and well, no one likes england to begin with. not me at least! so it wasnt so much of go france! more like, boo england, die die die! haha.

ive been having alot of alone time. its good. though i havent quite hung out with a huge group of friends for way too long. havent stepped into town for even longer. i quite like it, though a part of me misses it a whole lot too. bapok called last night sounding really depressed about life and all. and its getting to me. i need things to get back to what it used to. things seem to be falling a tad out of control. and i hate not being in control. ive grown so nonchalant towards the people around me. them and their feelings. ive grown cold and numb. nothing seems to bother me much anymore.

sometimes, id look back and wished that life was simpler. like, we dont need as much trials and tribulations. like what ive said before, maybe kids in india are happier. joyful. real joy. they dont have to bother about school, about social life. about having more. about voting for the next president, or whether your internet connection screws up on you. you dont have to bother about whether you can get there on time, or whether you'll have a car or whether your place looks nice enough for people to come visit. they seem to have so much more, yet so much lesser. i need to find contentment and fulfilment in the things i do. and worry about nothing more than just, i dont know. menopause. or something like that.

ive been doing so much lately. people have been finding much difficulty in asking me out. id be too occupied with frisbee, with rugby, with windsurfing or helping out at jans. or just being with old friends. yesterday was fun. chijazz 2007 didnt disappoint one bit. it was too good. and im in love. in love with this beatbox accapella band from germany. they were way awesome. so good that i bought both their cds on the spot. but their cds cannot do justice to how superb they sounded. i so wanna hear them live again. ahhh.. its just tooooooo gooood.... stouxingers. my new lovee. and yes, of course, that sweet dude that totally captivated me. gegorio D'clouet hernandez. his name alone can send anyone filling up a reservoir full of drool. hur hur. i lovee. guys that sing and carry themselves well immediately shoots up to a 2000point headstart on the gloriaguy rating scale. haha.

they really got everyone up and groovin to their beats. it was awesome. reminded me of large opened concerts when i was in europe. the picnic cum booze galore cum groovin cum good beats. ahh, it was worth every minute of my precious time just being there.

but zap zap, back to reality..

i really need to get down to studying. i should start going on study dates. it'll get my engine running. urgh, so much to do, so little will. buck up glor, buck up.

ive got a paper coming up in a week. and ive barely started on it. not to say, finance, which is less than a month away. i cannot possibly squish a sems load within 3 weeks of crash course. maybe i could, if i get help. but thats if i do find someone who's willing to teach. im quite brainless when it comes to finance. that person will have to deal very much with my bimbotism towards finance. like what the hell do shares do. things like that. hah!

if those nerds doing their masters can do that uber quick crash course type thing in what, 2 weeks? im sure i can too. but then again, maybe thats why theyre doing their masters and i'm just barely trying to clear my mods. boo. the inequality of brain power. i need to eat more brains. hahahaha, im such a retard.