ramblings..

im so tired. i just got back from work and i really got to start on my DC. darn it. its like doing this stupid retailing project all over again. its pretty much similar to the one we did in our final year, the one we had to roadtrip up to KL for to find some store to analyse. but this one is a little bit on a larger scale. we kinda have to ring up capitaland for this. wished jonty knew people. it would be so much easier.

ben's almost done with BMT. kinda mixed emotions about it. i guess there are quite a lot of things i want to do with my life as yet. not that having him around is a bad thing. just that, i could probably do more of my own stuff. i dont know. that was quite a selfish statement but i just need to get some things done first. like settling my sch stuff. saving up for san fran with christine next year. (hopefully! im keeping my fingers crossed) that lucky girl was the only one in school who got the exchange to USF for a sem doing random modules like sexuality and beverage management and what nots. obviously being the best friend that i am will HAVE to be a part of it. hehehe...

its things like that i feel i need to accomplish. and as i said, not that bens in the way, i just think i could probably do more with him busy with his own life. he'd probably take a year off army. and have a ton of free time with nothing much to do. and id be so busy with work and school and with my own friends of which till now he doesnt quite wanna befriend. i dont know what goes up in that little head of his. who doesnt befriend their partner's friends after 2 years. sheesh. im still quite bothered about that. he can never see it from my point of view. if i can do it, why cant you ben? darn it. im sounding more and more like yan can cook. argh, i dont know. i need badly to ramble.

i do enjoy his company of course. and without him, im nothing too. i dont think i can function well without him. its been 2 years. and our systems have kinda intertwined and become one. aww. how sweet a meaning yet i could put it in such technical unromantic terms. ahhaa. i dont know. i love you sweetie. ive just got things i need to do. i still wanna get my study abroad experience. and you do know why i didnt go. i wanna get so many things out of my way, out of my system before slowing my pace down, you understand? im more than happy to have you aroudn of course. i just need my space. and i quite liked it when you were in bmt. i coudl meet up with people. something i havent really done for a really long time.

argh.

everything has its pros and cons.

sigh, i need some sleep.. im completely bushed.