L is for the way u look at me. O is....

Love, what is love? i wouldnt even dare begin to unravel the mysteries of love. i mean, why do people talk about it oh so often. everyone blabbers about it on their blogs. yeah, true enough, we know the fundamentals. that God is love, He made us, so we're made to love. yes, no? it baffles me, really, i honestly shouldnt start.

i dont see why it should get u down like that. or get u guys down like that for that matter. maybe u'd say im in no position to speak about nursing a broken heart. maybe u'd say, u've got ben, u dont know anything about being lonely. u dont know how it is to have ur hopes raised high and watch it plunge straight down back again. aye..u see, there u're wrong.

love isnt a game, really. it isnt something u should get sick and tired of and smack out of ur head for good, coz u cant. u cant stop things from happening, u cant resist falling in love. u cant control ur thoughts, u cant tighten the reigns of emotions. sure, u can stop it from showing, but u cant stop it from forming. u see, God had designed us for companionship. so that desire of searching for that special other would probably never cease. but is it necessary? to get urself bundled up with emotional baggage. if it happens, it happens. thank God and be happy. if it doesnt, let go. i think ive gone through my fair share of traumatic experiences, i can almost stand to testify that hanging on to something that isnt even there is not worth it.

i dont know what really bothers u two. and i know there are wounds to heal. but brace up, coz ure only 20. u've done so well without a guy for the past so many years, whats another? feelings of hurt and rejection will fade for sure, because feelings are afterall temporal. and it will pass, if u only allow it to. i want so much for u guys to be happy. and being single really isnt that bad. if i didnt have ben, i dont think id still be in singapore. id be happily exploring some country whilst studying. its a huge sacrifice for me, so dont lament about it, embrace ur freedom! coz when the day comes where ure complaining about a spaceless relationship, id be laughing in ur face and remind u how something u used to dread, of not having someone, has turned around to bite u in the ass :)

so yyong, hang in there, someone will come when the time is right. and u'd never know, but ur first guy may just be ur last. (in a good way of course. not that u get ditched and never find another. haha) so u might turn out to be the luckier one afterall because u didnt have to go through all the shit we went through to be happy. and if that really happens, i wonder how many more years of dating ur P3 boy would have to go through. haha..

jia and xinling: everything seems superficially fine, but it probably isnt. so when ure finally exhausted from standing tall and strong, u've got my arms to collapse into, and my shoulders..my BIG BROAD shoulders to cry on. :)

and to the many others, dont tear, dont fear, coz glors always here my dears! :) yayyy!