God is so good. he's so good to me!

i dont know why im finding it so difficult to get to sleep tonight. strange..i didnt take an afternoon nap, i didnt wake up late, i shouldnt be so awake!

i laid in bed, involuntarily thinking about today. as in, well, u know when ur head doesnt exactly think of a specific subject, it just thinks and internally rambles...yeah..something like that.

im feeling so nauseous. is that how u spell it? bahh..everyone knows i cant spell anyway. my stomach all the way up to my throat just feels funny. it seems like theres a need to puke but..well..i dont know..i dont quite dare. haha. dont laugh. seriously, it seems scary to force puke. even when i drink too much, puking never comes into my head. haha.

maybe i cant get to sleep coz im thinking about how God had led me through today. i finally did quiet time today. finally touched my bible. im doing a book called 'have the POWER to change ur life!' by rick warren. haha. dont ask why i needed something like that.

so i got my job. and i havent said much about it. mom prayed alot for me. and so did ben! and when ben prays..God answers, amazingly. i got the job, it sounds fantastic. something that would interest me at least. it has a good mix of marketing, travel, leisure, events all rolled into one. though no kids, no sports involved, i think it'd do. maybe God wants me to do this. i was rather hesitant at first, coz its a 5 and a half day week. hate half days. and the thought of giving up swimming at bedok kills me. ive seen those kids grow up. its been 4 years! how do u expect me to give something up like that? and i havent told albert yet. i dont know how to put it to him. i love teaching swimming. but it appears that having this new job wouldnt allow me to do just that...urgh! what to dooo.. :(

just as i was lamenting about not being able to teach swimming to howey when i was at safra, the guy in charged of the seal swim school comes up and asks me whether i wanna help coach. pay sucks, but it'd be good i guess. shouldnt be picky right? its 20 per hour. and its near, and i dont have to put in much effort since the management sucks along with the pay. so..hmmz..i dont know..

todays a good day. opportunities keep knocking on my dooor. jane answered to my 'who to travel with' post. and yayy..she made me so excited about going to vancouver. i mean, i always knew going over for a visit would be fantastic. but hearing it in words from her now just seems so real, so possible. especially with the new job and all. everything just seems to tie in so well. like bam bam bam! surprise after surprise, reminder after reminder that Gods in charge here. and when my will is in line with His, i dont see why anything is impossible. i dont know, i cant wait! its been too long since ive seen aunty june, jill, raff and her dad. haha..yay! i know God will provide. so lets just wait and see how this goes... :D